I am tired and I want more. I tend to be LAZY. I do not know if it's pure laziness, depression, the feeling of being beaten down, the feeling that I do not like any of the few options I think I have, or just the fact that I have given up.
People who have unsuccessfully committed suicide have all said that their problems seemed in surmountable but that they now see that it was something that could be overcome. Well I feel as though my problems (while not that big), are so deeply entrenched that I cannot possibly climb out. It's like being in a deep hole that has standing room only. I see the sky, but the thought of climbing out tires me out before I can even start.
