A Change Gone Come

Do you know this song. Seal remade it and while it's good it lacks the weight of the original version.

I have 2 friends. One of which has wanted to be a teacher since we met back in the 5th Grade. Well she is a teacher and texted me last week that she was bored and if the economy were better she would quit and do something else. Friend #2 will be out of work in May. She will be forced to do something different as textile design is drying up.

As for me well I need a change in my life and do not know what that change will be at this point. I need to lose weight, stop sleeping my life away, further my education, and get some direction. I have been floating through life with no direction, purpose, or meaning.

Moving In Reverse

I am tired and I want more. I tend to be LAZY. I do not know if it's pure laziness, depression, the feeling of being beaten down, the feeling that I do not like any of the few options I think I have, or just the fact that I have given up.

People who have unsuccessfully committed suicide have all said that their problems seemed in surmountable but that they now see that it was something that could be overcome. Well I feel as though my problems (while not that big), are so deeply entrenched that I cannot possibly climb out. It's like being in a deep hole that has standing room only. I see the sky, but the thought of climbing out tires me out before I can even start.

Where I am?

I do not know who, if anyone reads my little blog. If there is someone out there I want you to know that your Home Girl is just fine. I have dragged my behind to the Fashion Institute of Technology. Wish me luck? This is the last week of classes. I will be back after Christmas with something new. I'm making some cosmetic cases I want to share.

So, Peace Out! for now.

Live on 125th Street

On 125th St there is a fellow crafter whose name is also Brandy.Our last names are practically the same. Mine has an "er" at the end.

Brandy makes some really cool hats and scarves. Take a look. At the moment she does not have a blog or online store. So you must come to NYC to get one. I forgot to mention how reasonably priced they are. I paid $4o for the set I bought last year and it's wool.

I think I'm going to get a brightly colored one this year.

This is the hat & scarf set I bought last year.

Election 2008

So, I voted this morning.

I wasn't sure if I was going to post about it today. But, feel that I must. The first time I voted was for Bill Clinton. It was exciting for me. At that time I was part of a population that did not vote in large numbers. The youth.

Well today everyone was out. Old, young, educated, street educated. There was 1 woman who had had her get right before she came out to vote. Home Girl sang Rehab by Amy Winehouse.

I knew there would be a possibility for a Black President but, I thought I would be an old woman. Well I'm not and the possibility is there. Tomorrow I will know if Obama is our President.

ZOOLANDER

Last night I was on the subway platform waiting for the uptown 3 express. The train pulls in I walk towards door and see someone I know. I make sure I get in the same car as his. All the while I'm thinking to myself, "I know this guy from somewhere. Maybe he's a dancer I've seen". So, I'm on the train and it comes to me "Zoolander". He catches me looking his way. I'm sitting about 7-10 feet away. I ask if he was in the movie Derek Zoolander. He mouths back to me, "Yes I was".

My next thoughts were. Damn you are such a nerd. Who recognizes a character from a movie who appears for about 5 minutes. Instead of going out on the weekends I'm watching Zoolander. However I really liked that movie. The other thing is that I never recognize celebrities. If it were a major celebrity I would have been like eeeww. They are only out and about because they want to be sighted.

This man played Mugatu's assistant. He gives Mugatu a frothy latte. Just now I googled him, it took me 10 minutes. I found him. Nathan Lee Graham.



Nathan Lee Graham played the role of "TODD" Mugatu's assistant. Mr. Graham has a website if you are interested. He has been working since Zoolander. Just so you know. I think he's very nice looking. Check out those eyebrows.

The State of Me!

I was walking to work this morning and began to think about myself in relation to myself and others. I have come to realize that I am a selfish person. Not in the sense that I have no regard for others but in the sense that I do not do what I do not want to do. No is easy for me to say in my personal life. For instance: I gave up a chance to earn extra money this weekend because I have to work on a project for school. Your "Home Girl" is hurting for some extra cash right now. However, I have committed myself to school and all my free time goes toward that. Especially since I procrastinate.

I work in the textile industry as a sort of Office Assistant, Sample Coordinator etc. We have a busy season coming upon us. I have just realized how much of my personal time I was spending at work. I'm in school 3 days per week. I have not had the time to complete projects lately. The reason? I use to leave work on average around 7pm (we close at 5pm). Now I told myself it was not a big deal because I got to check out the blogs I like to read etc. Well I now realize that I was doing some work too. It does not seem like work when you can take a break and go to que jimenez, spirit cloth, or what is now neo sew & co.

Also, I do not post here alot because I do not usually have pictures to share. I usually get the want to "blog" when I'm at work. I am better able to concentrate. At the moment it is 8 am. I came in early today because I have a lot of work to do and wanted to get my internet on before the day starts as I will not have time later.

On the picture front. I take all pictures at my camera's highest resolution. This means that all pics must be reduced before uploading. My pictures are usually over 25MB. I take my pictures at a high resolution because you never know what you will use them for in the future.